day 2: thoughts

Today was filled with nothing but awkward eye contact and strange tension.
You ignored me.
I ignored you.
It's a typical thing really.
I can tell you're upset about it.
I know you can tell I am too.
The sad thing about it is that you actually made me want to be a better person.
I don't know how to describe it but I really just liked how I am when I'm around you.
Now that part of me is gone.
I guess I'll be lucky if I ever see it again.
But maybe next time I'll know better than to waste my time on someone like you.

You

At this point I don't even know how to put my emotions into words.
You're sweet, charming, enduring, and contagious; so I guess that's why I fell for you so fast.
All of this was so unexpected, you and I.... or whatever we are.
I wish I could change things between us, but me being a psychotic bitch, and you being a deceiving asshole, we could just never work.
I should have listened to them when they told me to run.
I should have ran, far.
But what did I do?
Run into your arms instead.
Now I'm here crying over things I can't change.
Things probably won't ever be the same between us, 9th period will probably always be awkward.
I still like you but I don't think things would have ever worked out anyway.
But don't worry about me, I'm used to this kinda thing.
Most guys fuck me over anyway.
It's funny because you said you weren't like most guys, but you're not...
You're worse.