Clueless//

At 2:30 AM last night reality hit me.
This year I'll be turning 17.
This year I'll start my senior year.
This year I'll apply to college.
Some of the biggest decisions I'll ever make will all happen this year.
I have no idea where or what I want to do with my life.
I hate not being sure of myself, but as of now im 100% clueless.
All of my friends will go off to some boring ass college and marry boring ass people and get a boring ass job.
I just dont want that to be me.
I want to live an extraordianrly unique life.
I refuse to work in an office where everyone repeats the same task everyday.

The snow fell slowly,
kind of like I fell for you.
Little by little it made an impact,
like you did to me.
I feel like one of those cars you see in a ditch,
Spun out of control,
Kind of like we did.
So everytime there's a snow storm,
and I get worried
and I get scared,
I'll just remmeber,
You're my snow storm.





And somehow I find peace in that.

day 2: thoughts

Today was filled with nothing but awkward eye contact and strange tension.
You ignored me.
I ignored you.
It's a typical thing really.
I can tell you're upset about it.
I know you can tell I am too.
The sad thing about it is that you actually made me want to be a better person.
I don't know how to describe it but I really just liked how I am when I'm around you.
Now that part of me is gone.
I guess I'll be lucky if I ever see it again.
But maybe next time I'll know better than to waste my time on someone like you.

You

At this point I don't even know how to put my emotions into words.
You're sweet, charming, enduring, and contagious; so I guess that's why I fell for you so fast.
All of this was so unexpected, you and I.... or whatever we are.
I wish I could change things between us, but me being a psychotic bitch, and you being a deceiving asshole, we could just never work.
I should have listened to them when they told me to run.
I should have ran, far.
But what did I do?
Run into your arms instead.
Now I'm here crying over things I can't change.
Things probably won't ever be the same between us, 9th period will probably always be awkward.
I still like you but I don't think things would have ever worked out anyway.
But don't worry about me, I'm used to this kinda thing.
Most guys fuck me over anyway.
It's funny because you said you weren't like most guys, but you're not...
You're worse.

Lorde // Pure Heroine

"Pure Heroine" is breakout artist's, Lorde's, debut album. With her number one song "Royals", and Grammy nominations for "Best Record" and "Best Song";  this 17 year old from New Zealand is taking the world by storm. Each song on her debut album gives a feeling of luxury, excitement, and rebellion. With it's hip-hop and electronic influences, this is by far one of my favorite albums of 2013

Kate Spade Metro watch replica

                                                                            

Black Bangle- J. Crew

Gold chain link bracelet- J. Crew 

Striped Watch - Pitaya 

Kate Spade Metro watch- $175

Lately, I have been obsessed with Kate Spade! My problem is that everything is so expensive! For quite some time now I've had my eye on the watches, they're so unique and glamorous! So today, I was just shopping around at some local boutiques and I came across this watch! Its an exact replica of the Kate Spade Metro watch. At first, I didn't want a fake watch but then i realized spending $175 dollars for a watch I probably wouldn't wear everyday is a bit ridiculous! I brought it up to the cash register and the lady noticed that one of the gold dots on each corner was loose and that it moves around the watch! This was the last one so they agreed to take $5 off the original price, making it only $18. The loose gold dot is barely noticeable so I decided to get it anyway! In my opinion, this was a great deal!

- Chloe

Music

Lately, I've been listening to "The Weeknd". Some of my favorites are "Crew Love", "The Morning", and "Wicked Games"! His style of music is definately R&B, which most people wouldn't guess I like but it's actually one of my favorite music genres! 

"Lorde" is a fairly new artist, and to be honest I haven't listened to her other music but, her most popular song "Royals" is absolutely amazing! Its insanly catchy so i can see this one getting popular really fast!  

Jay Z's album "Magna Carta... Holy Grail", is absoultely spectacular. Honestly, its one of the best albums I've heard in a while. Featuring artists like Justin Timberlake, Frank Ocean, Beyonce, and Rick Ross, you can guarantee authentic talent. Some of my favorite songs are, " Holy Grail", " Oceans", 

"Picasso Baby", and "Heaven", just to name a few.

"The xx" are an English indie pop band with a unique sound. Some of their songs barely consist of even lyrics, but i still adore them. Some of my favorite songs are "Angels" and "Intro". 

Pacific Air's album "Stop Talking" is astonshing! It's funny because I actually found this band through an add on spotify! Pacific Air has a very beachy vibe to their music and in my opinion they sound like a cross between the bands "MGMT" and "Young the Giant". My favorite songs on the album are 

"Play Nice", "Roses" and "Float".

if you would like to find more of my favorite music, follow me on Spotify !

Music has a tremendous impact on my life,  it can make me want to sob into my pillow at 4 AM or, it can make me want to dance around the kitchen in my pajamas on Saturday morning. I'm in love with music because it can completely alter your mood in as little as 3 mintues. It can make you feel like you can conquer the world, like anything is possible. But it can also grab you and drag you to the bottom, making you feel numb and worthless inside. But that's the magic of the music, its ability to control people is so liberating. Music effects people in ways unimaginable, in ways you can't put into words, the music just speaks for itself.

- Chloe